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13.08.08

2008-08-13T14:27:00.003+08:00

lol todae's her presentation day.
wished her luck n realli hope everythin went well for her..
no reply frm her though, she muz be real busy wif the presentation.
haha ting jiayou =)
sianz nw gt nth to do..
waitng for her to end & come find me.
lol hope time faster come~
den later gotta go drive again sianz..

seeking an answer that i'm so unsure.
guess situation lk a show i watched.
she's jus lk a legless bird.
dun wanna stop or gotta stop.
full of confidence and freedom.
circling around tis place rite here but still lookin out for other choices.

08.08.08

2008-08-08T00:38:00.003+08:00

haha it's now 12plus 08.08.08
olympics started & i'm watchin ivory coast vs argentina
lol tis few days veri boring and sianz..
dunno y mum keep attitude me..
jus now had a long tok wif preston.
haha we bros for so long i think first time tok so long.
we tok frm no rain till it poured. lol. sorrie man for causing u to hear all those unpleasant stuffs.
tks for having a listening hear bro =)
hmmm i noe it's gonna be quite hard for me n her to be back ba..
i think she'll have a hard time too, given so mani negative feedbacks from her frens. lol!
although she didnt mention anythin, i guess the chances r slim.
well mayb i shd have pretended i saw nth that time n let it go..
brought her so much misery. she could have been happi wif him.
i feel lk a foolish dumbass. haha

cheer up simqixian!

Days without her

2008-08-05T09:30:00.003+08:00

here's the post after donkey years.
tis mornin wake up den mum wasnt feelin tt well.
she said she veri tired den lazy to do things.
lol so i gave her a massage on her shoulders =)
haha she felt veri 'song' den gt energy to do things liao.

it's morning now and i'm sitting in proj room waiting for mie 'dear' partner.
agreed ytd to come early but nw 9plus he still nt here. dick.
the proj realli kill me. argh..
it's so freakin unfair.
hw come i did everythin & still wasnt given a 2nd review?
other grp did less den mine den they can get 1?
those 3 reviewers of mine muz be damn 'smart' can..
i'm gonna prove those 3 ass tt the idea can work & make sure i get wad i deserve!

lol has been quite happening tis few mths.
it's been about 3mths we have been apart.
i noe her frens dislike me & tt influences her alot.
if she wants, i'll get out of her life.
i dun wanna force anythin. lol
well jus hope everthin goes well for her =)
haha everyone muz think i'm a dumbassss!

bad bad day

2008-05-14T22:31:00.003+08:00

had to wake up early in e mornin go sch do proj.
weather was so nice for slpin la.. argh.
sianz! but nvm. was lookin forward to after sch.
cause can meet uknowwho =)
we finally had the presentation & everythin done by 12plus.
went for class.. den teacher sae present next week. diao~
make us do so much and so fast for nth. but ok la means done liao.

den~~~ bad news came.
alrite. had to cancel the date. haha!
forget it. den after tt her mum came.
went over to eat near mie hse. den i went home la.
we hardly n bearly had anythin to tok.
i jus dun get it. wad's happened to us? haix. =(

能不能再听一次你说爱我

Happy Mother's Day!

2008-05-11T20:00:00.002+08:00

lol happi mother's day mum! =)
mie family's simple..
we jus had nice food for celebration..
mum liked the cake alot n she ate 2 pieces!
haha first time she eat 2 sia. she nv lk cake.
den we had 'huo guo'~ cooked for mum haha
we all ate well n chilled the whole day at home.
mum watched her favourite shows den her fren came to visit.
lol todae not bad sia. mum was in good mood. haha =)

-her-
sianz. todae we didnt tok again. till now. 8 liao.
i txt her at 2plus sia. till nw oso got no reply.. wad lor.
wad's the diff of havin a gf or nt?
told me she todae goin www. but den till nw still no reply.
smtimes u realli make me wonder.. u realli wanna be wif me anot?
tell me hw u feel.. tell me wad u wan me to do? haix! sad life.

hope mum everydae oso so happi=)

still the same.

2008-05-10T00:16:00.002+08:00

it's fridae n supposed to look forward to the weekend.
lol had quite an easy day. class ended at bout 3plus.
den damn sianz.. nth to do so decided to had a little chat wif her.
as usual she's always busy. didnt reply mie last msg oso. diao.
lucky got zh acc me walk here n dere do nth. haha tks bro~

5pm finally came n got onto her mum's car.
headed to bukit timah to eat smthin first.
den we went to her bro's sch, AJC for the performance.
it was nice la. realli enjoyed tt wan. haha
but mayb u dunno. throughout the whole thing.
i felt lk stupid la. u left me dere almost alone.
we hardly spoke oso. onli when we went for supper.
den we had abit more talkin.

reached home after her mum sent me.
bathed n waited awhile den i called her.
realli jus wanted to tok to her more.
den she ask me slp early. havent even tok for awhile den sae she's gonna slp.
jus dun get it. y wont ur gf wanna tok to u more?
we have lk no communication. damn sad la.
den started to sae tt i nv acc mie parents. dun have to sae till i so unfillial.
different ppl have different type of showing concern.
it's very hurting to have heard u said all those to me.
not angry but realli sad. jus felt tt u dunno me at all.
u'r no longer the same as last time. u changed or mayb i did.

suddenly i feel we'r strangers. =(

morning~

2008-05-05T08:05:00.003+08:00

it's 8plus on a mondae.
back in sch in a lousy mood.
sianz.. wanna continue slpin sia.

lol went out wif her on fri..
had dinner den she pei me go buy jasper's birthdae present.
den she help me write the wishes. haha
xie xie ting=)

went to celebrate jasper's birthdae on sat.
as usual meeting @ hse means = majong.
after which we went to cine for kbox n pool..
had our dinner @ swensons caused of the time. lol
haha..it was fun singing la.

smtimes msg u oso nv reply. sianz lor.
wanna tok but u seem nt havin any interest. haix.
hw come we dun tok lk we used to?
hope things turn for the better ba. =(

labour day

2008-05-01T23:37:00.004+08:00

bad bad day..
8.30 wake up acc mie mum go see doc..
mum nt feelin well.. looked realli in bad shape..
=( ~ma get well soon~
den see chinese doc.. waited dere but gt nth to do..
lucky got doc's daughter. though i forget her name, she's veri friendly. nice tokin to ya!
wandered u woke up alreadi anot but scared wake u up...
after mum's done den mie turn. haha
right hand was lk pain for so long..
thought will veri fast get well.
no choice go see doc den doc bandaged mie hand sia.. -lk zhu jiao-

realli bad mood todae cause onli can use left hand. argh..
missed u so i called u n txt u.. didnt noe u were busy.. sorrie sorrie.
i apologised liao but still got attitude frm u. i mean i was jus worried wad. haix!
i was in bad mood oso. realli sorrie for the bad attitude.
haix. i dunno when can we get back tgt lk last time. =(

life sux.
i'm sorrie.

changes..

2008-04-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

felt beta todae after things were explained.
but still it feels weird. i dunno whether u realli wan me as ur bf now.
i asked u things cause i'm concerned. u'r important. if nt i wont even bother...
but wad i got was u givin me reply of ''dots, y u keep ask the same qn?"
haix. it seems lk we always got nth to tok bout. i jus wan us to be back to last time.
the other day heard u wanted a new phone. so asked if u wanna get same wan tgt.
it's lk smthin we share.. den u "dots" me again. reply me wif -okok u go buy lor.-
argh.. i jus dun wanna force u to anythin. if dun wan den forget it. wad's the diff being tgt or not?
u said that u love me, u'll treat me truthfully. but i dun see any significant changes. =(
i jus wan a sweet gf that when i can tok to when i'm feelin down, to support me when i need.
i wanna do likewise to u. be dere when u need me. when u meet trouble, first person come to ur mind is who?
do u noe wad i wan? hiax. feel lk shit man. jus hope we can get closer n better in time.

heartbroken

got treated lk dirt.

2008-04-29T15:33:00.004+08:00

lol mayb somethin's freakin wrong wif me man..
was busy doin proj alreadi. veri 'pek chek' liao.
so thought of u...
y am i always treated lk dirt? is it so hard to reply?
it's nt tt i wanna check on u. jus wanna noe hw u doin when u put some angry comments on ur pm.
thought mornin u realli busy. so waited for after lunch..
den i asked nicely y nv reply me. all i got for a reply was lk tellin me to piss off.
after tt even b4 i can reply u signed off.

realli sad to see tt happen. =(
sorrie i asked too much!

wad a day..

2008-04-28T21:16:00.001+08:00

mondae blues...
lol it's mon had to drag mieself to sch @ 8am. sux man.
had a real hard time doin the stupid drawin for the robot todae. damn tired..
zh became sick all of a sudden den keep 'ha chooooo' next to me.
zhihao u beta hope i nv sick.

-ilu-
27.04.08
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